Jamie Lee Curtis wrote a great children's book, Today I feel Silly. I first heard it in a children's sermon at my church and loved it.
Some days I feel silly and that feels great!
Some days I feel icky (like when Kira puts slime on my hand – pic at right)
And some days I just don't want to get out of bed. This weekend I got wonderful affirmations from great people that I'm a person of high value to them and the world, so why would I feel depressed.
I almost didn't let myself realize that I did not feel my own worth. That even when external validation came in, it couldn't build me up if I didn't believe in myself.
So am I writing to you or to myself? Me of course! lol
But to you too, because I also realized this weekend that if I don't share the lows as well as the highs, I'm doing us both a disservice. Life isn't just about the highs, it's also about the days that should be kick ass, but something is just holding us back.
This morning I realized that in spite of all the development and growing I've been doing worked so well when things were going great, but one little hickup and I feel like I'm clawing my way up from the bottom again. Darn! Shoot!
But then I thought, this is great! I get another opportunity to try again, but do it better this time!
And part of doing it better is sharing that process with you. So this time I choose to keep going, to know that the Universe is supporting me, not me and not my shear will power.
On the way home from Dallas, I had a feeling I needed to stop and stand on the hillside with the wildflowers, so I did. But more on that tomorrow… 😉